A Song with a Memory

First, lets be clear. I am single, and most of the time I am very happy and relieved to be so. However, like most people, I can have times when I feel lonely or get the lonelies (which I am defining as a few brief moments of loneliness in a short period of time.)
I had some lonely-esk emotions earlier today, I thought due to seeing someone who reminded me of a girl from my past. I believed those feelings were the lonelies.

Itunes got me again.
I imagine most people have this, but I strongly attach memories to songs or artist whom I heard during those moments. Most of them are very pleasant memories or sad moments which I now think of fondly--because I love real emotion whether upbeat or not.

The Anthem by Good Charlotte is for my first girlfriend, I didn't even like the song (tho enjoy it now), I wanted to listen to DMB, but I cared so much for her, the song and memories of her dancing to it still make me smile.
If You Could Only See by Tonic was a song I had for a girl I was crazy about in high school.
The Scientist by Coldplay after my first broken heart--Quiet by John Mayer as I tried to pull myself out of it.
Wish You Were Here by Pink Floyd was the song that I listened to over and over as I returned from a whirlwind weekend which had me fall hard and quick for a girl.
The Luckiest by Ben Folds got me tonight, the whole album in fact brings back memories of time spent with my first college girlfriend, and moments in which I was probably the happiest. Those moments were fleeting, unfortunately, as was the relationship.
I have dozen's of these songs which bring back particular memories, sometimes they come back stronger than others. Sometimes they bring back a smile, tonight they suck me out of my normal contentment.

Fleeting is a very potent word for me.


Tonight's Song:

Forget About Me by Janove Ottesen

"But, it would only be a lie,
if I told you I do not miss her
Her eyes, and her smile,
and the words she used to whisper
But, the lord only,
knows how much I have prayed
And the lord only knows about my lonely days"

I am also posting a poem I wrote long long ago right after I broke up with the same girl whose song prompted this posting. This was the second poem I had ever written, and despite its simplicity, I still love it.

Lost Somewhere

I’m lost somewhere
I never thought it would hurt like this
Its 4 am and I’m sitting here lost in nothingness
What happened to what we had?
Why didn’t I know till now what I had?
I am lost in nothingness and it hurts so bad

I’m lost somewhere and
I can’t get you out of my mind
I have stood here for hours wondering what I did
I can’t leave what we had behind
Did this dream really have to end?
I’m lost somewhere

I kiss your lips and hold your hand
Your smile is so perfect and never fake
We're sitting, talking,
We rest our toes in sun warmed sand
And then I wake
I’m lost somewhere

Another day without you in my arms
I can’t hear myself think
And all I want to do is cry, but I can’t
This feeling that I’m left with is all I have
I just want to roll over and die

I’m lost somewhere
I’m lost somewhere without you
I’m lost without you baby
But I can’t get you back